For the moments I feel faint...

*Warning*

This post makes very little sense and is full of my insanely ridiculous thought processes- continue at your own risk.

The mind can be an adventurous place, of late I find myself in a carnival like landscape. One moment enjoying the sights from a tall Ferris wheel, the thrills of a great rides on roller coasters- the joy of wind blowing through hair and giggles from crazy drops and turns. Then in a blink of an eye in a room full of mind-boggling mirrors- that distort and twist reality into the monsters of the unknown, making it easy to want to close my eyes and run (yes with my eyes close...I wonder how far I could get?).

Clearly the thrill seeker in me likes that idea of my mind being such a colorful and exciting place...or the fact that I just simply have not been to enough carnivals to satisfy my childlike heart that I have to think in such terms. Perhaps a bit dramatic, but who am I kidding it runs in the family and every once in a while it is fun to channel it.

All of that to say, I am so incredibly thankful for the promises, hopes and truths that God has given me to stand firmly upon. Dwelling on such things, makes the good and bad of this adventure seem not 'safe' but... secure. The awe of Him having me in the palm of His hand allows me to bask in the fact that I have a:

• Creator who wants me to seek Him daily (loving 1 Chronicles 16:11, Psalm 27:4, Psalm 27:8)

• A God who knows I can only love Him because He first loved me. (1 John 4:19).

(here is a crazy great message from Spurgeon about this overwhelming love)

• And that because of this love- daily I am to renew my mind in such a forever faithful God (Romans 12:2).

• He knows I am made of dust and His mercies are great!! (Psalm 103:13-14)

Suddenly those carnival mirrors that reveal my fears have far less of a hold on my thoughts and my heart. I rest my hope, my all in such a good King. May He be forever glorified!!!